Day 237: The Unexplainable

Day 237: The Unexplainable

“The heart has its reasons, which reason knows nothing of.”

— Blaise Pascal

Today was fine.

The rain, the quiet, the little things.

Nothing bad happened.

No storms. No breakdowns.

And yet—

as sure as the breath in my lungs,

my mind kept wandering back to her.

I don’t do it on purpose.

It’s not some planned ritual.

It just… happens.

Mid-conversation. Mid-thought. Mid-step.

A dozen scenarios.

A hundred versions of what could have been, what still might be.

I laugh at myself sometimes, how ridiculous it must seem.

How impossible it must look to anyone else.

But still—

it keeps me going.

It keeps me from giving up.

It fuels something I can’t name but refuse to let die.

I can’t make it make sense.

Not to you.

Not to myself.

All I know is, some part of me still believes.

Still fights.

Still reaches for a future I can’t see but somehow trust is there.

Maybe that’s foolish.

Maybe that’s hope.

Maybe that’s just who I am.

Today was fine.

I’m fine.

And somewhere, hidden between the ordinary beats of the day,

the heart still writes a story it refuses to give up on.

One Step. One Punch. One Round. 🌹

—Your Fellow Traveler