Day 203: The Path to Recovery

Day 203: The Path to Recovery 

“Understanding is the first step to acceptance, and only with acceptance can there be recovery.” —J.K. Rowling

Today was about introspection and understanding—grasping the deeper layers of my own psyche. Recently, I’ve learned more about the complexities of ADHD and its frequent companion, OCD. My version of OCD isn’t about the stereotypical compulsions; it’s about an overwhelming need to fix things, relationships in particular, like the one I have with Hope.

Being confined in that RV, all I could do was fixate on making things right with her, which, in hindsight, fed into my OCD tendencies. It allowed this aspect of my disorder not just to exist but to thrive and dominate my thoughts. Recognizing this hasn’t been easy, but it’s crucial for my growth. It’s a journey from mere awareness to deeper understanding and, finally, to acceptance.

I share this not in search of sympathy, but with the hope that my experience might illuminate similar paths for others who might be silently struggling to understand their actions or feelings. Perhaps someone out there is grappling with their own ‘brother or sister’ diagnosis and wondering why they behave in certain ways.

Engaging with all of you here has become a vital part of my therapy. It keeps me accountable, and yes, even my number needs to keep going up—not just as a score, but as a reflection of my ongoing commitment to healing and understanding myself better. As I joke about it, it’s a reminder that while I can’t fix everything, I can improve and transform myself one step at a time.

So here’s to understanding ourselves better, to accepting our complexities, and to recovering not just in part, but wholly. Every step forward on this platform is a step towards that recovery.

Day 203,

One Step. One Punch. One Round. 🌹

—Your Fellow Traveler